Even though she had protected us from many dangers…some we never even knew about, we were unable to do the same for her when she needed us.
I remember watching her kill a huge rattlesnake; we had been running through the yard and saw the snake as we jumped off the porch…over the snake…coiled up in a corner. I remember being so afraid…holding my breath, covering my eyes and praying the snake wouldn’t bite Mom.
There were many other dangers, both seen and unseen, that she protected us from. Mom faced many fears of her own as well, including living as a single mother for a period, hearing the news that her husband had been in an oilfield fire, and finally realizing that Alzheimer’s was claiming her brain.
I wish there had been a way to stop this disease…to kill it as if it were a snake in the yard…saving her as she had saved us many times. But, we couldn’t protect her from the monster coiled up in a dark corner of her mind, slowing poisoning her brain.
Many of my greatest fears came as we battled Alzheimer’s for many years following that diagnosis. There were so many unknowns and so many tears. Especially when weariness was greatest, fear and worry consumed me, and the woman who had protected and encouraged me all my life could no longer do it.
This Mother’s Day, I celebrate the brave women who are mothers to my grandchildren, loving and protecting them from dangers, seen and unseen. Mostly, I’m thankful they are training these precious children to trust the one who covers them with his feathers and shelters them with his wings. His faithful promises are their armor and protection. (Psalm 91:4)
Thank you for spending time here, Tracie
“Do not be afraid, for I am with you. I will gather you and your children from east and west.” Isaiah 43:5
“When I am afraid, I will put my trust in you.” Psalms 56:3
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