HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!
Dad was born on August 3rd. It’s hard to believe that he would be turning 85 if he were still here. He loved birthday cake and ice cream…especially after a Dairy Queen hamburger! Other than that, he was in favor of simple celebrations, spending time with those he loved. It seems like I should be planning to bake a chocolate cake for this weekend…maybe I will anyway.
LIFE IS SHORT
Where did the time go? No more birthday celebrations with Dad? I miss him, but I’m thankful that we made many new and precious memories, even in the midst of Alzheimer’s. Even though the disease consumed us and weighed heavily on our hearts, we found many moments of joy and laughter.
Around the end of 2016, we knew that Dad was close to the end of his life on earth, and all of us wanted to spend extra time with him. Family members started making their way to the memory care home to see him. On his way, Byron stopped at the hospital to visit friends whose baby had just been born. He talked to us about how strange it was, in the span of a few minutes, to see the beginning of one life and the ending of another. Strange indeed…life is short. Why are we always surprised when life comes to an end? Why, at the end, does it always seem that life wasn’t long enough? Is it really because we have regrets at the end of life, realizing that we should have spent our time differently? Is life really so short?
THINK ON THESE THINGS
Because of his birthday, Dad has been on my mind the past few days. This has stirred up thoughts about why I felt so compelled to write Dancing Around the Chaos and why I decided to start this blog. I believed that both were things God put on my heart, and yet, I put the blog aside after the cancer diagnosis, unsure if I should continue with it.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about how important it is for me to think on “good” things…things other than cancer. My Savior, my family, Mom, Dad, friends, birthdays, the book, the blog…these are some of the things that consumed my heart and mind before cancer. After the diagnosis, thoughts of cancer started crowding these things out, pushing them to the back of my mind while cancer took a front seat. This I know…I don’t want to spend my time thinking about cancer; it isn’t the most important thing in my life.
Someone I know has a 1-year-old granddaughter who was recently diagnosed with cancer. I think of this baby girl often and remind myself that if she can do this, surely I can! I’ll start chemo again in a few days, but I feel great right now and ready to move along with the treatment plan and fight this cancer! And I feel ready to do some writing for the blog…not weekly but at least periodically. I hope I still have followers!
The verse below is one that I should have paid more attention to when we were facing Alzheimer’s. Finally, I’m letting it sink in for the Cancer Journey. I want to remember to think on these things. Maybe you can too.
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” Philippians 4:8
And this one…I love this verse…
“May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.” Psalm 19:14
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